Monday, March 28, 2022

Armed & Ready

 

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Though the tears
I’ve seen the other side
There’s nothing to hide
Just years going by
 

Take the tears let go of pain 
Most don’t understand
The thing is I’m a broken man
Just trying to hold  onto sanity
 

I  try  hiding the fear inside
There’s nothing left to hide
My life is one of loneliness
Pain- disappointment
 

But I am a warrior I fight
Not out of anger but for the right
I fight for basic survival
It’s a day too day battle
 

But I’m armed an ready
I hold strong and steady

Sunday, March 20, 2022

Let Me Introduce Myself

 

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Let me introduce myself—- I’m 60 years old. Married ! I guess it’s the first time I have ever thought of writing and sharing it with anyone::: let alone on a blog. 

I am confined to a wheelchair! Have been since June of 2018. Everything started in May of that year.  My wife was hit by a car doing her crossing guard duties—- she was air lifted to UVA hospital—then June 1st I collapsed at home and was taken to our local hospital.  The last thing I remember is May 30th, after that I spent a week in ICU.  They then thought I was stable enough to transport me to UVA. 

I don’t remember much of June but I finally became aware of where I was shortly after.  I spent 4 1/2 months in and out of ICU! I went into septic shock and had surgery to remove my left hip!  They also removed my artificial shoulder and cleaned it up and put it back in place during the process of inpatient hospitalization. 

I found out I have cirrhosis of the liver.  As if that was not enough, I found out I also had Parkinson’s.  Needless to say it was a bad 4 1/2 months.  Once I was released the journey was only beginning. 

I will share more as time goes by.  Feel free to ask questions!

Friday, March 18, 2022

Another Day

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Here I lay  not much to say
It’s another day of the same 
Loneliness— fear—pain
Yeah most people just walk by
I hold back the tears I won’t cry


There’s no  escaping
There’s no running away
There’s little to say
And people just don’t care
They say nothing just stare

 
It’s as if I don’t exist
I don’t understand this
Yes I am disabled not dead 
So get that thru your head